Life is full of surprises.

Just when you think there's no hope in life, and you're on the bottom of the totem pole, happiness comes strolling your way, so pray that it stays that way :). One time on a Sunday, church morning, my priest preach about how people always pray to God when things are terrible and such, but they never really pray when things are going well and pray that things just stay well and get better and better. Usually I don't listen to the homily but this one really caught my attention, and I think that we should all praise the good times and pray that they keep on coming. I think that, for the happiness and good times to keep coming and getting better, there's no other way to do it then being optimistic. So like 10 minutes ago i was feeling pretty optimistic, but someone always ruins it. hmm.....

take a shit

hiii :)
summers been alright, nothing great or anything, just been spending time with friends and such. Hopefully I'm going to start volunteering soon at tufts. uhh so summer feels like I'm always in chinatown, doing nothing, but still manage to throw a little fun? Iuno, summer suck.

Oh, Canada

Sooo we went to Toronto then Montreal, I'm so sick of car rides. But the pictures are all from my iphone and most are black and white because I downloaded this awesome app called "old camera" which makes the pictures look like they were taken from an old camera? lol. the pics go from montreal to toronto, when we actually went the other way around

Maybe its not my weekend, but its gonna be my year.

Have you ever felt like that the problems that you are facing right now, are gonna be what matters the most in your life. I hate feeling that way. Even though you know that the future is gonna change everything, you just can't help but feel that way. Sometimes it feels like life is going no where you want it to and that it never will and you're never gonna get what you want,even though the things you want keep changing. I always try to reassure myself about things like that and sure, it makes me feel better for a small amount of time. So what I do is try to live life differently and occupy myself with other things, so it gets my mind off things. But when I'm at an all time low, whenever, all those emotions pour out and I just can't stop it. I start thinking too much, and I think its just a terrible thing. Of course I know that life will change sooner or later but right now it just feels like everything is dull and its just gonna stay the same and I will never learn from my past and just let it repeat itself constantly. All of this reassuring does not last long but they help for the time being. But the only way I think to move on is to find something or someone new to attract to and always show that you are strong.

I need a mircle.

I've gone for too long, living like I'm not alive, so when this memory fades, I'm gonna make sure its replaced, with chances taken and hope embraced. I've learned to run from things that are uncomfortable and tied down my pains, so that no one ever has to know that inside I am broken. I try to patch things up again to count my tears and face my fears. I just need this pain to end right here, right now. The only time I get to smile now is when I'm with friends, only because they put my mind at ease and let's me forget for a while. On tuesday, I was in a complete rut and I don't know why but I couldn't hide it no matter how much I wanted to.

hi

My first blogg, zomgg, I think I'll talk about my day today :) I woke up at 230pm and that was like the first time I ever woke up soo late, kinda disappointed in myself for that. Mostly stayed home and played Fire Emblem the whole day, I kinda grew addicted to the game...But afterwards Tony came by to pick me up and we wanted to go play pool after he did some errand. When we got to the place, to play it was packed so we left and got some KFC. I got one of those famous bowls, it was allright, you can tell they didn't put effort in making it cause it was empty and late. But after went home and here I am :D